Lara/22/Australia
I'm completing my Bachelor of Education (Primary and Middle) with Honours, and this semester I'm required to keep up to date with reflections of my learning, understanding, and progress as I prepare for a research project, my final prac, and attempting to get a job.
These are my thoughts.
But always manage to forget by the time I get a moment to write it down. I really need to find a way that works for me to keep track of these thoughts. Keeping this blog has been really helpful in encouraging me to A) consider my reflections; B) think about my day and my progress; and C) just write where I might normally waste time.
My PRT4002 group met today and we are almost finished our Case Study. It was difficult, as we need to reflect and give personal ideas… but there are six of us, with different ideas and views and opinions. We’re a pretty good group, we’ve done a good job, but it is not easy. I also feel like an outsider, as everyone else in the group are friends outside the group, and I am good friends with just one of them. I often feel like there is no point in arguing, and want to happily leave them to make the important decisions whether I agree or not. But I’m also terrified of them thinking that I have not put enough effort in, and on top of that, I really dislike watching people make mistakes. I find this interesting to reflect on, as I will be in similar situations often as a teacher, collaborating with other teachers. Even if I am supply teaching at a new school every day, I have to be tactful and open to receiving advice from other teachers who know the school - not only being open to it, but actively seeking it as a means of surviving!
I can be quite scared of meeting new people, but at the same time, if I set my mind to it I am able to push away that hesitation (of sorts) and do my job to the best I can, including interacting with strangers. I see this in the way I am able to talk well with parents at my After-School Care.
