Reflections from an (Almost) Teacher.

Lara/22/Australia
I'm completing my Bachelor of Education (Primary and Middle) with Honours, and this semester I'm required to keep up to date with reflections of my learning, understanding, and progress as I prepare for a research project, my final prac, and attempting to get a job.
These are my thoughts.

I’m done.

Tuesday the 26th of October, I completed the 30 days of my final Internship teaching grade 5.

I passed.

I was so unsure and so unconfident. I thought I may fail. I thought that I had really done a pretty average job, and could not be certain that I had done well enough to pass. But I did.

Friday the 29th of October, I submitted my last ever university assignment. It was a 4000 word project based on research conducted during my Internship.

I still fear I may not have completed this properly, unsure about the requirements and expecations. I followed the marking criteria carefully, though did not attach my ongoing reflections (as it was not included in the criteria) and I fear that I was actually supposed to. But there is little I can do about it now. I simply must be sure to check for emails… All I want is to pass.

That makes me sad. There was once a time that a B was unacceptable. That I would always put in my all to get a 85%+ score, and now, now I’m content to simply not have to do it again.

I have more to reflect on, and should really, at least, type up the reflections I have been doing for the PRI 4001 course and assignment. Just in case I’m required to show proof. I was just really hard put for time and prioritised re-typing a number of reflections at the bottom of the list, as there was nothing about it in the marking criteria. I just can’t help shake the feeling that they were supposed to be included anyway.

I just don’t want to worry about it any more. I worry too much.

Reflections from an (Almost) Teacher.

Oct. 31, 10

12:33 AM

I’m done.