Lara/22/Australia
I'm completing my Bachelor of Education (Primary and Middle) with Honours, and this semester I'm required to keep up to date with reflections of my learning, understanding, and progress as I prepare for a research project, my final prac, and attempting to get a job.
These are my thoughts.
Today could not have gone better, I don’t think.
I was in control, the students listened and did what they were asked, and more than that, engaged in creative thought and learnt a lot!
The relief teacher supervising me (also supervised me yesterday) really stepped in to encourage me and demonstrate how he gets the classes attention. It set up the day for success. I also introduced a few things about how the next 3 weeks will run, and it settled the students well; the table group competition, table named after Commonwealth nations, the program of inquiry about the Commonwealth Games, the medal tally, and the newspaper assessment.
I was able to complete organising the activity matrix/table that I was upset about yesterday, and it seems quite positive and we are ready to introduce it tomorrow.
I feel like the class was much more well behaved and settled today, and felt much more in control than yesterday. Even the relief teacher mentioned how confident I appeared today. That surprised me.
I am still unbelievably tired, and will probably be in bed within the hour, I’m still not eating much, and my throat is so sore I can’t cough without wanting to vom, and it kills me just to swallow.
Tomorrow I’m teaching with D, and it overshadows how positive I feel about today. I’m just worried about what he will think of me.
I’m my own worst enemy though. I still think I’m too hesitant to show what I’m capable of doing, too nervous and cautious to take initiative, and that makes me think that my personality is really not compatible with this job. 13 days left.
